As stated last month the entire purpose of this blog is to get me writing again. I was in FL for a few days (sure I could write about that, but unless you know my wife's family and my penchant for humor that makes sense only to me, certain immature 13 year old boys and drunken hobos, it's just not as funny.) and now am home and sitting down scratching my newly trimmed mane (oh, my hair how I miss your lengthy tresses!) I have no clue what to write.
My goal was never to write daily. However I keep seeing friends and family doing these "blog challenges" or "Facebook challenges." Usually they are niche to a certain genre. Probably because I'm two years behind and all the general daily challenges are old and boring. But I found one I like. I'm stealing from another blogger who stole it from someone else. When I'm done, perhaps I'll write my own daily challenge to keep myself going.
So...onward!
Day 01 -> Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 -> Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Day One:
Something I hate about myself. Oh good, a nice, easy, high arching lobbed ball. I've totally got this one. Though, I'm sure this is the case of everyone. It's easy to see our own faults, even if we don't admit them.
I joke a lot about the passage where Jesus says to love your neighbor as yourself with "it's a good thing I hate myself, because I can't stand my neighbor." Sadly it's kind of true. Most of the time I loathe me. And not exclusively when I'm going through my downswings emotionally. Even when on my highs I'm not really that fond of myself. The only times I forget to hate myself is when I'm surrounded by my wife's family. I can't really understand why.
Anyway, I had to whittle it down to what I hate most about myself. Otherwise this would have been entirely too long. I hate that I stopped trying. There was a time in my life that I would try nearly anything (except different recipes for cooked carrots. Gross.) just to say I had done it. Somewhere along the way I decided to see all the failures I could accrue rather than the successes I might attain. I kept dreaming big dreams and ideas, but I would start poking holes in them before I even attempted to shoot for the stars.
There is a whole laundry list of reasons for this. But I won't bore you with the details of my life to this point. I've never gotten to that point where I could have a dream, a big dream and start to work towards it without shooting myself in the foot. I have ideas. Grand ideas. And before I have even finished looking at all the wonderful things associated with said ideas, I am finding my faults and failures. I can see a hundred ways that I will fail for every one way I see to succeed. I become encumbered with doubt and shackled to the fear of failure.
Thus, day one, something which I despise about myself. Well that was depressing.
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